Sick of this stuff...and other ramblings

Long story short, I've been sick on and off for the past month. Mainly, it's been stomach pain to the point of nausea (no vomiting), food aversion, severe abdominal cramping, occasional spasmodic shaking, and a 7 pound weight loss in a matter of a couple of weeks! [Ok, 7 pounds doesn't sound like much, but I don't have 7 pounds to lose!!]. So anyways...I went to the doctor last Friday and actually got to see 2 different docs. One is in training and the other was the one I was originally scheduled to see. Well, both did work-ups on me and came to the same conclusion - there's one of 3 things possible: 1. ulcer; 2. acid reflux; 3. my stomach lining is infected/irritated. Basically, I had to do some lab work, and the doctor prescribed me Nexium to try and help settle things so I could get back to eating normal. So, I started my Nexium on Friday, and amazingly, I felt 100% better on Saturday morning. The doctor told me it would probably take a couple of weeks for the Nexium to fully help, but I felt so much better on Saturday morning and actually got to eat breakfast!

Tonight though was a completely different story. I took my Nexium and followed it with my pre-natal vitamin. Yeah, not so smart. Now my stomach is all crampy and icky again. I'm starting to feel better though, so maybe I'll get dinner eventually!

As for other things...work has gotten better. We had a huge remodel with our desks, so now I'm somewhat on the end, but that's okay with me! My patients still come and visit me. It's great to know they love me! There are still days though that completely suck, but overall, I think things are getting better. The provider we were having problems with has done a complete 180. She was talking to us like she did before all the drama started. It was nice knowing that she wasn't going to report us for something else, or scold us for not doing our job properly.

The weather here was gorgeous today, so I took my two dogs for a very very long walk. As I walked through military housing, it kind of dawned on me how much I really do want to have a baby. I walked past a house whose driveway was covered in sidewalk chalk drawings. I saw a father playing t-ball with his son. I saw another group of kids out with an adult and it looked to me like they were digging for worms. (I honestly don't know for sure what they were doing though. Whatever it was, it sure looked like fun!) I want to have a little one that I can draw sidewalk chalk pictures with, dig in the dirt with, play baseball with!

I can't wait until my hubby is back so we can get back to trying! With his change in jobs, he'll actually be home more, so we'll have a better shot at actually getting pregnant. [Previously, he was only home for a few days every week, so getting any actual BDing in was practically non-existent. We did more FDing than anything else.] I already have an OB/GYN doctor, and he's been really truly great. Of course, I'm sure it helps that I work in his office, but still. If we're still living here in this area when we get our BFP, that'll be the doctor I see!

Ok, super long post... Maybe if I post more often, I won't get so long-winded!

i'm in a dead end job

Today, I came to the realization that I am stuck in a dead-end job. Granted, there are days when I absolutely love my job and wouldn't trade it for the world. More often than not though, I just come home crabby and with a near-migraine headache. I work in a clinic as a receptionist. My coworkers are really great. I love getting to see my pregnant friends and neighbors come up. I love to see the women come up that have tried for months and months to get pregnant and then they get their two pink lines on a pregnancy test. I love those days.

Then there are days like today. One nurse decided to try and tell me something that I knew wasn't right. A patient and her family had driven a good hour plus for an appointment as well as for her to get a shot. Well, the nurse tried to go around and around with me justifying why this patient supposedly couldn't get her shot. In the end, I was right. The patient got her shot (although the mother wasn't too impressed with the nurse), and all was well. It's frustrating to no end when people don't put our patients first. Should it really matter who a person's doctor is for some things? Absolutely not. If a patient needs to be seen and there's an opening in a provider's schedule, my philosophy is to fill the space! The patient will get their needs addressed and the provider will see a couple of extra bucks on their paycheck. How hard is that to get?!?!?!

Now, add to that a bunch of changes that are suddenly being made at work. These changes are never told to us - we find them out through others' word of mouth, or by seeing the new procedures/forms/etc. the day the change is instated. Sure, occasionally they'll ask for our input before they implement some changes so we are somewhat aware of the new procedures or whatnot, but nine times out of ten though, our suggestions and comments fall on deaf ears. The administration will do whatever they think is best instead of what the staff feels would be best for not only our department as employees, but also for the patients when it comes to the care they receive. It's so frustrating.

I was discussing with my husband today the frustrations I am having with work, and he's all for me quitting there. Personally I'd absolutely love to! I'd love to find a job where there are promotion opportunities and possible management positions! [There aren't any in my current workplace.] I'd love to find a job where I'm not stuck at a desk staring at a computer screen and answering phones all day. I'd love to have more interaction with people rather than just talking over a "window". It'd be great to be able to get up and move around more often. I'm not a desk-job person, I guess. Reality hits though, and I realize that we're still paying on my student loans and my car. My job basically helps to pay for those things month after month. I figure though, if we end up finding out that we'll be moving [which is what I'm really hoping for], I'll quit my job a little earlier than what I usually would, and just enjoy life. I definitely won't be going back to a job like what I have right now. I know that I just won't be happy living day in and day out stuck behind a computer screen and a desk with a phone up to my ear.

Intro

Blogging has now become the new thing in the 21st century, so I figured, what the heck. Why not start one of my own? When I was younger, I had a diary, then a journal, and now, a blogspot! Seems fitting I guess.

So a little about me:

I'm 23.
I'm married to the most wonderful guy.
We have 2 dogs - a basset hound and a lab mix something-rather.
My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant since March 2007, but no luck as of yet.
I graduated from college in 2007, but do not currently use my degree.
My husband and I spend just as much time apart as we do together.
I'm not afraid to dig in and get my hands dirty, no matter the task.
I love throwing huge parties and cooking big meals.
If I could, I would have a baby grand piano in my house so I could play every day.
Someday, we're going to have a fish tank filled with cichlids.
My dream vehicle would be a Dodge Ram 1500 (or bigger, but I'd settle for a 1500).
I really don't like Canada all that much.
People get really hyped over the Black Hills and Mt. Rushmore - I don't get it.
I'm a little bit of a perfectionist.
I'm addicted to Grey's Anatomy, Law & Order: SVU and CI, and House.

Just a little insight into me. I'm sure that as I post, you'll learn more, but for now, that'll do.